A CHALLAH MEDITATION

SOARING WITH ANGELS

Challah Kabbalah

When my two younger children began preparing to become b’nai mitzvot, I began lighting Shabbat candles, so that there’d be some continuity between their studies and their lives.  Having grown up in a family that was richly immersed in Jewish culture but mostly disconnected from religious practice, this is a ritual that was never practiced by my mother or my grandmothers. But I gave it a try and it felt good.

One step often leads to another, and soon I was cueing up at the Jewish bakery on Friday mornings to buy a challah for dinner. Years passed. The kids moved out but I continued lighting candles and buying challah. When we were ready for a life change, my husband and I sold our house on Long Island and bought a home on 24 acres of forest in the mountains of Northeastern Pennsylvania. We had deer. We had bears.  We had otters and skunks, raccoons and coyotes, a multitude of frogs, and mink. We had a phenomenal amount of snow. We did not have a Jewish bakery.

I did, however, have some books on Jewish baking. With virtually no experience baking bread and little experience working with yeast, I nevertheless forged ahead. I took the water’s temperature with a candy thermometer. I watched the clock to be sure I was kneading the dough for exactly the right number of minutes. I carefully monitored the time for the first and second risings. And, to my amazement, I turned out a very respectable, three-strand braided challah.

Over the years I have tweaked my recipe, learned to test the water with my finger, and come to know when the kneading is done by feel. I learned to braid a six-strand challah and a variety of round challot (plural) for Rosh Hashanah. I started playing with the dough, turning out challot in a variety of shapes, for holidays and for fun.

I expected, as one would, that as I became more practiced, I would gain proficiency. But…through the process, I received something that I never expected.

Challah had become a meditation, an experience that lifted me out of the physical world to soar with angels.

It was an experience so mind-altering that I became overwhelmed with desire to share it.

The ritual of baking challah on Friday mornings helps to set a rhythm to my life, grounding me in space and time. That grounding means I’m securely tethered, leaving my neshama (soul) to safely travel to other worlds.

So, fasten your seatbelts and …

Come with me on a journey!

Apple begins with A, Banana begins with B, Shabbat begins with Challah.

come with me on A Journey

We will bake challah

and we will soar

Now, if you don’t want to take the journey and only want to bake some fantastic challah, click here to go straight to the recipe for Golden Shabbat Challah.

lalalala… fingers drumming…

respectfully waiting for non-travelers to leave the room…..

Yay! You’re still with me! Ok, before we get baking, let’s go deeper and explore the

“Kabbalah of Challah.”

BAKE BREAD, CHANGE THE WORLD

Crafting the bread that we call challah can be more than an act of baking. It can become a ritual with the magical bonding power to transcend time and space. When I knead my dough, I feel my grandmother’s hands on my hands. I visualize all the hands of all the Jewish people around the world who are kneading their challot at the same time that I’m kneading mine. I feel their hands working the dough with me and I know that I’m a link in a vast chain connecting past, present, and future. Even though I am alone in my kitchen, I am part of a community.

Kinetic Meditation 

We tend to think of meditation as a passive activity in which the mind and spirit travel, while the body remains in a state of stillness. There may be an object on which to focus, such as a candle. Sometimes a mantra is vocalized, and its repetition helps to carry the traveler to other planes of consciousness.

But, meditation does not have to be passive, and a mantra can just as easily be physical as it can be vocal. Think of the image of an observant Jew deep in prayer. The accoutrements of prayer – the kippah (skull cap) on the head, the tallit (prayer shawl with fringes) and t’fillin (phylacteries) that are wrapped around the body – these material objects are, themselves, a focal point. They help to create an inner space where the meditative state can be more easily reached. The davener (a person praying formalized prayers) is most likely holding a prayer book and vocalizing the words very softly. You may also notice quite a bit of rhythmic movement – rocking, bowing, bending at the knees and straightening up again – this type of praying is more than just talking to THE NAME. It’s a kinetic meditation in an altered state of consciousness, a place where one can meet with, connect with, and experience a two-way conversation with the Divine.

In our challah meditation, we will be using both movement and voice to transport ourselves to other realms, and at the same time we will be producing food for the physical body. Spiritual energy works like a good germ—The energies you encounter and absorb while visiting those realms will be infused into the bread you bake. The people who eat the bread will be filled with the energy it contains and be subtly, perhaps subconsciously, elevated by it. This energy, this holiness that now flows through them, will radiate from their being and be absorbed by all the other people with whom they come into contact..

In this “pay it forward” way, one loaf of bread can change the world.

Part two

BEFORE THE BEGINNING

A Link in the Chain

The Gathering

Before something can be created, there needs to be a plan, a blueprint. This holds true whether you’re creating a loaf of bread, a chair, or a universe.

For a deeper exploration of this topic, I invite you to check out my post, Challah as a Representation of Creation before going forward, because I think it will enhance your experience of the meditation.

But for now, we’re going to put aside creating universes and just create challah. We need a recipe, we need ingredients, and we need tools.

So, let’s get started and get the practical stuff sorted so that we can move on to more esoteric matters.

First, let’s gather our equipment.

·       You will need a large, smooth counter that’s been scrubbed absolutely clean.

·       You will also need one large and one medium mixing bowl.

·       Grab a big wooden spoon, if you’ve got one, or any big spoon if you don’t.

·       You’ll also need some measuring cups and measuring spoons.

·       A bench knife is handy, if you’ve got one.

·      A kitchen scale, if you have one. *

·       You’re also going to need a pastry brush.

* I always use a kitchen scale so that when I divide my dough the measurement is exact. That’s just me. If you haven’t got a scale, divide the dough by eye. It will be fine. You shouldn’t worry.

Now, set out your ingredients:

I pre-measure everything and have it all ready to go on my workbench. This way I don’t have to interrupt my flow and my focus in order to find and measure ingredients as I go along.

     All-Purpose flour: between 6 and 7 cups.

I leave the flour jar on the side of my workbench, in case I need more for dusting.

I recommend using a flour that is unbleached and unbromated. Most breads call for bread flour, which is higher in protein and gluten, but all-purpose flour works great for challah. I like King Arthur brand, but there are other good brands out there. And, although it makes for a heavier loaf, you can add some whole wheat flour if you’d like to do so. King Arthur makes a white whole wheat that has the health advantages of the whole grains, but is finer and lighter in texture than traditional whole wheat flour, if you want to go that route.

      Water: 1 ½ cups of fresh, cold or room temperature water

      Dry Active Yeast: 2 Tablespoons

I buy active dry yeast by the jar and store it in the fridge. It’s easier to measure from the jar than to have to open those little packets.

Do not use the instant, rapid rise stuff.

If you can find cubes of fresh yeast at your market, that’s a great option, but be sure to check the expiration date. If you’re using fresh yeast, you’ll need 1.25 ounces.

      Sugar: 2/3 cup (plus a couple of pinches)

Organic is nice, but ordinary white granulated sugar will do fine. I use part honey during the High Holy Days season, but it is not an even-swap substitution. You can click here for the recipe for this special challah.

Oil: 1/3 cup

Here’s where I get up on my soapbox to preach… Vegetable oils are not good for you. Canola is a Monsanto-developed, GMO product invented in Canada (can-ola) from rapeseed, as a cheap-to-manufacture cooking oil. It is highly refined and often partially hydrogenated to increase stability. Canola oil has other uses as well. It makes a good fuel alternative to diesel and its component of items made with plasticizers, such as tires. I never use it. I use only cold-pressed fruit and nut oils. I tend to use a lot of olive oil in cooking, but it’s not a good choice here because it has too strong a flavor. Try sunflower, organic grape seed, avocado, etc. I use any one of them, depending upon what’s on hand (and what’s on sale!).

       Eggs: 5 large eggs

Happy hens produce happy eggs. I like to know that I am not contributing to animal misery. My brother and his husband used to raise chickens for eggs. They are intelligent, creative, and very entertaining critters (I mean the chickens, not the brothers) who answer to their names. I choose eggs from chickens that spend their lives running about outdoors and roosting in trees. They can be a lot more expensive than eggs from tortured birds. I am far from rich, but this is one of the places where I splurge. I just can’t support that industry. Organically fed is good, but less critical to me than the quality of their chicken lives. I don’t worry about the ones labeled “vegetarian.” Free roaming chickens are not vegetarians. They peck at bugs.

       Salt: 2 ¾ teaspoons of good old Kosher salt

Optional:

      Turmeric: about ¾ teaspoon

It’s not essential, and you probably won’t find it in most other challah recipes, but turmeric adds a lovely golden color to the bread and has anti-inflammatory, health-giving properties, as well.

     Seeds:

Some folks love ‘em, some hate ‘em, and some will get really sick and stop breathing from them, so it’s up to your discretion. Poppy or sesame are the most traditional. I like to go for the gusto in life, so I use both. I sometimes also add pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, and/or fennel seeds to the mix. I’ve even been known to save up the seeds that collect in the bottom of a bag of everything bagels, and sprinkle them on top. Divine!

Now that we have everything in place, we are ready to Begin…

Part three

One of my favorite mantras comes from the daily liturgy. It’s, “Kol haNeshama T’Hallel Ya!” —Everything that draws breath praises G-d. In fact, this is also true of inanimate objects. The very act of existing praises the One Who brought its existence into being.

As you add each ingredient to the bowl, see if you can focus on its meaning and visualize drawing its particular energies into yourself. Breathe them in and then let them flow through your hands and into your dough. This is going to happen by itself naturally; the ingredients can’t help but to bring their energies with them. But, when it’s done with kavanah (mindfulness), you will open yourself to experience these energies on a conscious level.

·       Yeast:  Yeast represents growth and the unfolding of our highest potential. Working with yeast is different from using chemical leavening products, such as baking powder and baking soda. On those products we can impose our will, but not so with yeast. Yeast is a living organism, just like us, and so we must relate to it in the way we would relate to another being. We don’t act upon it; we work with it. And in doing so, we remember that our growth must never hinder the growth of others, but rather encourage it along.

·       Sugar: Sugar is the sweetness in life. Its human qualities are kindness and gentleness. Sugar is the Sabbath, the sweetest day, the day we separate ourselves from worldly concerns and enjoy the peace that comes when we allow ourselves to simply BE, rather than do.

·       Water: Water is spirit. Water is the essence of all life. Life began in the sea, and everything that lives is mostly water. In our challah, water represents Torah - which contains our laws, our history, and our relationship with our God. Torah is as essential to the spiritual life of a Jew as is water to our bodies, and just as water can turn a desert into a lush garden, Torah can fill an arid heart and make it bloom. As such, water is represented by chesed, compassion on the Tree of Life.

·       Oil: In the book of Exodus, THE NAME tells Moses, “If you (the children of Israel) obey Me and keep My covenant, you shall be to Me a kingdom of (priestesses and) priests.” Oil was used to anoint our ancient priests and kings, elevating them to a higher state of purity and devotion. The oil in our challah will anoint each person who eats it, lifting them from the realm of the mundane and empowering them to operate in the realm of the sacred.

·       Eggs: Eggs represent rebirth and new beginnings, reminding us that with each new week we have the opportunity to remake ourselves and come closer to becoming our best selves. In Jewish tradition, eggs represent hope.

·       Flour: Flour is food, the staff of life, sustenance. It is representative of our humanity, for while like other animals we graze and we hunt (eating meat and nibbling vegetables as they grow from the earth), the art of grinding grain to flour, kneading dough, and baking bread is a distinctly human art. We feed our physical bodies so that we are able to carry out the work that is specific to human beings in this physical world, the work of tikkun olam (repair and reunification of the world.)

·       Salt: Salt represents the covenant between God and Israel that is for all time. It is the preservative that, in itself, never spoils. On the Tree of Life, salt is represented by gevurah, judgment. When used judiciously, in balance, perfect flavor is achieved. Just as salt is the invisible ingredient that allows the flavor in food to shine forth, salt is the Kabbalah of Torah - its concealed, inner dimension. Salt gives strength to the dough and causes the yeast to grow in a consistent and controlled manner. But… too much salt and the bread will taste terrible! As such, salt reminds us to maintain the balance between judgment and compassion, but to adjust the “sweet spot” of the scales to favor compassion. To give rebuke is sometimes necessary, but we should give it in small doses. Salt reminds us to be gentle and kind, with one another and with ourselves. As you add the salt, think about your strength, about allowing it its proper place in your life, in order for you to be neither haughty nor self-effacing.

·       Turmeric: In Jewish culture, challah is one of the three mitzvot that are specific to women. In Indian culture, turmeric is the physical essence of the divine feminine. Challah is linked to Chanah, the mother of the Royal Davidic Line. According to the Mishnah (Oral Torah), challah is connected to the Land of Israel and the rectification of the Jewish people’s connection to the Land. When we add turmeric to our challah, we are symbolically adding beauty and healing, the wealth of royalty, and the energy of the creative force.

·       Seeds: Seeds are faith. When we plant a seed, we see no immediate result. We are making an investment in our future. We water it and we wait, anxious that it may come to naught, but excited with the hope that it will sprout, grow, and bear fruit. Over and over in our lives, we continue to plant, having faith that eventually some of our seeds will take root and produce something good. We believe that, even in dark times, everything is a blessing and will ultimately work out for the best.

And now, with our tool kits packed, we are at last ready for take-off!

ESSENCE AND ENERGY

Everything in the physical world has its own energy and vibrates at its own frequency.

We can use that energy and infuse it into the things we create.

Part four

the challah meditation

CREATING SACRED SPACE

WE BEGIN

We start by Breathing in THE NAME

Stand in front of your workspace and take a few slow, deep breaths, inhaling, holding it for a moment, exhaling, and holding again before the next rhythmic breath. Try to clear your mind of all extraneous thoughts. Be fully in the moment. Now, as you breathe, sense the ruach, the wind of the universe, God-breath, flowing through you.

The four-letter Name of God is unutterable, but it is breathable. 

Keeping your lower back straight and your shoulders square, start to roll your head down to your chest. Let gravity and the weight of your head take first your neck, and then your thoracic spine, down towards your solar plexus, curving your spine like the letter Yod י, the first letter of THE NAME. While you’re rolling down, inhale deeply with the sound of Heh ה, the second letter of THE NAME, drawing in the universal energy. Hold it for a moment, then roll up one vertebrae at a time, from your thoracic spine to your neck, and then finally your head, until you’re standing erect like the letter Vav ו, the third letter of THE NAME. While you’re rolling up, exhale with the sound of Heh ה, again, completing the four-letter NAME and returning the energy to its source. Repeat this breathing for a few minutes, until your neshamah (soul) can sense the One-ness and is aware of its connection to all-that-is. You’ll know you’re ready to move on.

Focus

As you add each ingredient to the bowl, focus on its inner meaning. Have you ever heard the saying, “as above, so below?” It is a precept of kabbalistic thought that everything physical is, in its essence, the devolved form of a higher spiritual entity. Everything in this world has a spiritual parallel. Drop a pebble into either the material, or the spiritual world, and ripples will appear in the other.

When we bring an awareness of the energies of each of our ingredients to the baking process, we encourage those energies to enter, thus giving space for both the baking and the eating to promote spiritual and psychic healing, and to lift us to a higher plane of being.

Spoon the yeast into the medium sized mixing bowl.

Ok, yeast, time to rise and shine. We need to warm the water.

Thirty seconds in my microwave is perfect, but yours might be different. You could also warm it up in a small pot. The water needs to be at just the right temperature, somewhere between 90˚ and 110˚. You can use a thermometer if you’re not feeling confident, but remember that our bodies are 98.6˚, so the water should feel neutral or just slightly warm to your finger.

 Gently pour the warmed water over the yeast and sugar. Stir it, clockwise, with your wooden spoon, and watch the water turn a creamy tan. In a few minutes it will begin to gently foam and bubble.

side note: stirring clockwise adds energy, stirring counterclockwise removes energy.

Give the yeast 5 – 10 minutes to fully activate; then add the pre measured sugar to the bowl.

Next, pour in the oil.

Crack three eggs into the bowl. Crack a fourth egg and separate it, adding the yolk to the dough bowl and reserving the white in a separate small dish.

Now, add about two cups of the flour into the bowl.

Add the salt.

Now add the turmeric into the mix. The addition of turmeric to challah is not traditional, but turmeric imparts a lovely golden color and it’s also an anti-inflammatory.

Take up your wooden spoon and stir the dough in a clockwise direction, just enough to start to blend the ingredients together.

Now, add four more cups of flour and stir to form what bread bakers call a “shaggy mass.” You can sing, if you like, while you stir. Go ahead and let it out. It doesn’t matter whether you sound like a choir of angels or a rusty hinge. Just sing. The song that works for me here is “Oseh Shalom.” It’s a beautiful, haunting chant that repeats, which makes it work well as a mantra. (If you don’t know the tune, you can find it on YouTube.) 

Oseh shalom bimromav Hu ya'aseh shalom aleynu

Ve'al kol Yisrael Ve'imru Amen. 

May the One who makes peace in the heavens, make peace for us

and for all of Israel, and let us say, amen.

Of course, if “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish works better for you, then go with it. It does have a great beat…

When the stuff in your bowl looks like a pile of hair that was shed by a sheepdog, you know you’re there.

It’s finally time to knead. Sprinkle a little flour onto your work surface, and onto it dump your shaggy mass, scraping out as much from the bowl as possible. You’ll need to knead for 8 – 10 minutes, until that mess in front of you is a beautiful golden ball, smooth as satin. Work the dough with your floured hands, pushing it away from you with the heel of your palms, folding it over, stretching it, pushing it away again. Try to get a rhythm going. If it’s sticking to your hands, add more flour, just a little sprinkle at a time. You may not need to add any more, but you also might need to add as much as a cup more. You don’t want the dough to be dry and difficult to work, but it shouldn’t be sticking to you and the counter. You can use your bench knife to scrape it up from the counter if it starts to stick.

Now that you’ve got the feel of it, close your eyes. Your hands know what to do. Feel the dough. Feel it growing strong beneath your fingers, and ...

… Sing! Yep, sing again. Invoke the angels by singing to them. I love using “Shalom Alechem,” with its beautiful, haunting melody. Again, find it on YouTube if you’re not familiar with it.

Shalom aleichem, malachei ha-shareit, malachei elyon,

mi-melech mal'chei ham'lachim, ha-kadosh baruch hu.

Boachem l'shalom, malachei ha-shalom, malachei elyon,

mi-melech mal'chei ham'lachim, ha-kadosh baruch hu.

Barchuni l'shalom, malachei ha-shalom, malachei elyon,

mi-melech mal'chei ham'lachim, ha-kadosh baruch hu.

Tseit'chem l'shalom, malachei ha-shalom, malachei elyon,

mi-melech mal'chei ham'lachim, ha-kadosh baruch hu. 

May your coming be in peace, angels of peace.

Bless me with peace, angels of peace.

May your departure be in peace, angels of peace.

As you sing to the angels, inviting them into your space, visualize them actually entering your home and infusing it, yourself, and the people you live with, with peace for the coming Shabbat. Ask the angels to stay for Shabbat, bidding them to go in peace at its conclusion. I think you can feel their presence, if you try.

See, I promised you would soar with angels!

Your dough is now ready to be set to rise. Follow the instructions in the recipe for Golden Shabbat Challah.

It’s a good idea to read over the meditation and familiarize yourself with it before beginning the practice.